Return of Dream Spirits

Return of Dream Spirits

My darling Dream Spirits
we meet
yet again!
It's been far too long!

Please rescue me
from the dark
dismal
depths of the abyss

the very core of
my soul
screams
for your aid

I've been alone
far too long
no one hears my song

a siren I've become

bring my sorcerer back
home!

Afraid to sleep
my dreams you must keep
no good to me anymore
if I become Satan's whore

I need you, Dream Spirits

don't desert me
in my time of pain
wrists slain
sap pouring down the drain...

come to me

but once more

Missing You

Missing You

I need you, I want you

But we’re so far apart

I know that you’re with me

Deep inside of my heart

I hear you whisper

Feel your breath on my cheek

Feel your arms close around me

As I fall asleep

It’s you in my mind

In all of my dreams

I see your eyes in the stars

And your love in sunbeams

Another six months

We must still endure

But closer we’ll be after

Of that I am sure

The trials and pain

That we’ve suffered apart

Will certainly strengthen

What we share in our hearts

As I Walk the Earth

I float to the heavens
I float beneath the earth
I'm learning so much now
About my self-worth
I may be older now
But I feel so young
Only good thoughts
Roll off my tongue
Small-minded people
May irritate me,
But deep inside them
I see the good that can be
I walk the earth
With my head held high
A witch and a wiccan
A good person am i
I listen not
To those who talk trash
I don't give in to anger
No response or tongue lash
I respect others' thoughts
And who they shall be
All I ask in return
Is that they shall respect me
In closing this poem
All I can say
Is I look so forward
To each and every day

http://xoxopublishing.blogspot.com/2011/02/poem-by-raven-lynx.html

It's Your Fault

It’s Your Fault…*
It's your fault
that I'm crying
here alone in my bed
It's your fault
I believed all those
things that you said

It's your fault
I am lonely
vulnerable, scared
it's your fault
I feel foolish
thinking you cared

It's your fault
my heart opened
& showed you inside
It's your fault
now I'm broken
and wanting to hide

It's your fault
I may never
smile, laugh or play
It's your fault
I'm so sad
and feel so betrayed

It's your fault
that you'll never
be back in my bed
It's your fault
my heart's broken
and intimacy I dread

It's your fault
I say good-bye
and please go to hell
It's your fault
I'll not say ever
that I wish you well

Love light

Love Light

I often thought
I was alone
until the day
your love light
shone
You scooped me up
and took me home

You showed me
love
you held me tight
while stars above
lit the night
squeeze me, dear,
with all your might

You're kind
and bold
my heart you hold
no secrets here are left untold

You know me
best
unlike the rest
with hearts at stake
you never jest

I often thought
I was alone
until the day
your love light
shone
You scooped me up
and took me home

Who Am I?

Who Am I?

Mother
Daughter
Sister
Wife
So many roles
Define my life.

Secretary
Administrator
Paralegal
Assistant
So many roles
Yet not one consistent.

Conventional
Classy
Sexy or
Sassy
Conformist
Rebellion
Straight-laced
Or hellion

Traditional
New-Age
Goth
Repressed rage

So many directions
Am I all or just one?
Many combined partials?
Or really, just none?

I’ve dabbled in many
Perhaps faked even more
All that’s now certain
Is I don’t know which door
Opens to me
And all I can be
But I need to be free
So the world can all see

Who am I?

Enslaved

I long to be
Forever smoke free
But nicotine calls
And before it I fall
I'm weak in the knees
And everyone sees
That I'm in a rut
A slave to the smoking butt

I Hate That You've Missed

I hate that you've missed...

I hate that you've missed
so many school dances
I hate that you've missed
how your little girl prances

I hate that you've missed
swimming on sunny days
I hate that you've missed
report cards with "A's"

I hate that you've missed
how her hair's grown so long
I hate that you've missed
her first made-up song

I hate that you've missed
all your boys' charms
I hate that you've missed
healing broken arms

I hate that you've you missed
me trying to replace wipers
I hate that you've missed
her outgrowing diapers

I hate that you've missed
Christmas this year
I hate that you've missed
so much happening here

All I can say
is I've known every day
if it were up to you
you'd be here too

The army's your job
but family your life
and I'm really so proud
that I am your wife

Tattered and Bruised

Tattered and Bruised*
I can't eat, I can't sleep
I'm again so confused
about you, me and him,
my mind's tattered and bruised
I've loved him so long
but it's just not quite right
I lie here alone
and think of you every night
I met you but once
what a fabulous day!
We talked and we laughed
we clicked right away
though we live miles apart
we're so close, and it seems
wherever I am
you're there in my dreams
don't give up on me, baby,
I'll be honest and true
if things work out well
I'll be there with you
because of the past
I owe him one last try
if we can't work it out
I'll be home and stop by
with things so uncertain
I can't ask you to wait
if we're meant to be
it will be up to Fate
remember this, love,
you are never alone,
and as soon as I can
I will come back home

Undecided

Undecided*
I hope the decision
I've made is quite right
I hate being without you
alone every night
I lie in the dark
and rationalize things
I stare at my phone
and pray that it rings
I need to let go
yet I want you to fight
and say what we have
is pure and all right
perhaps if we'd met
at some other time
things would be perfect
and work out just fine
at this point I know
it will only cause pain
as much as I want to
I can't see you again
good byes are so awful,
so final, so stern
but the fire you've ignited
forever will burn

You Were There

You were there

Ah, your face
On my eyelids it’s traced
Your sexy smile
I hadn’t seen for a while
You were there
When I was fearful
Your wit and your charm
Made me cheerful
Hadn’t seen you for so long
Was afraid it would go wrong
I was sick and so scared
Your eyes told me you cared
Into your arms I melted
Lost in your scent
I cried for hours
When away again you went
What kept me going
Was always knowing
No matter what
Your love have I got

Life Inside a Bottle

Life Inside a Bottle

I live my whole life
Inside a glass bottle –
People can see me,
Admire me,
But cannot touch me.
I, likewise, can see people
Happy and laughing
Outside my bottle.
I can see and admire them
But I cannot touch them –
Will not touch them.
From inside my glass bottle
I can see life
As I long for it to be.
Yet I remain
In this little glass bottle
Where I am safe…
From hurt;
From emotion;
But where I lack love
And remain ever lonely.

Evil Beguiled

Evil Beguiled

The light
is my captor;
my freedom
is night.

My rapture -
to feed
on souls
that I capture…

My bidding?
I am Unholy -
all good I
am ridding!

These worlds,
my dark side -
so wicked,
as evil unfurls.

You can but run
from fangs of wrath…
Wither and die,
baking in sun.

Angel has lost
her pure gold soul,
ne'er again whole
as away it is tossed…

Unholy now wins!
This evil beguiled,
out running wild,
strength through sin…

'Til we meet again!

Reflections

Reflections

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A tireless mother
doing for others
before looking after me...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A tireless wife
who so loves her life
being who she wants to be...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A most loyal friend
who is true to the end
like sisters & soul-mates are we...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A daughter whose love
is matched but from above
and knows how much they love me...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A tireless sister
whose siblings have missed her
but know how I long to be free...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
A woman with desire
whose heart's set afire
with all things she knows she can be...

I stare at the reflection
but what do I see?
Deep recesses of my heart
where I made this new start
and for once I truly see ME...

A Song of Praise

A Song of Praise



I’m so proud of you, love
And the job that you do
Yet it’s so dangerous at times
That I’m worried too

I know that I’m selfish
‘cuz I hate when you’re gone
I’ve tried to be better
Understanding and strong

The truth of the matter
Is quite simply this:
I love you so much!
It’s you that I miss!

I know that leaving
Wasn’t your choice
It makes me melt
When I hear your voice

I know you’d be home
If it were up to you
Just know that you’re loved
For all that you do

Forbidden

Forbidden*

I know I should run,
but not sure that I can
I think about you
wherever I am
the weekends are hard
when we can't talk or write
knowing I can't hold you
in bed late at night
I'm falling for you
and it scares me to death
I feel your touch, and your kiss
your desire, your breath
before you completely
take hold of my heart
I must turn away
and make a new start
you are with her
and I am with him
this is a time
when no one can win
it's not what I want
and may break my heart
but it will hurt less
if we agree now to part
I think that you care
as I do for you
but we're both seeing others,
so what can we do?
no strings attached,
just benefit friends
that went out the window
and now it must end
I will never forget you
we made quite a pair!
I'll look back and smile
on the times that we shared.
Good bye to you
my friend, my dear
it's hard and it hurts
and I know I'll shed tears

Betrayed

Betrayed

To be betrayed
The heart’s cut and rots
When one so loved
Turns and walks

Each wound so deep
While lovers weep
Another nick
The blood’s so slick
Down from the heart it creeps

To be betrayed
A pain so real
It cuts to the core
She no longer can feel;
Her soul and heart
From inside her depart
The wounds may never heal

To My Husband With Love

Twelve wonderful years
as husband and wife
Together fourteen
Such a fabulous life!
I know no one else
Who gave me their love
That fit like yours does
Snug as a glove...

Do you remember?

Do You Remember?

do you think about me
when I'm not there?
do you remember how it feels
to run your fingers through my hair?
do you miss my smile, my scent, my voice?
do you remember it all, or forget me by choice?

do memories flood your mind
of how things used to be?
do you dare to think ahead
is it our future that you see?
or do you dwell on regrets
and when you wished you were free?
do you think about everything?
...everything but me?

when you're silent and sullen
my instinct's to retreat
becoming scared and insecure
and sadly admit defeat
with your face, name and voice
etched on every heartbeat

did you once love me
if but for a moment?
it so would've helped
if you just would have shown it!
the residue you've left- the stabbing paranoia

- I now own it

a duet unrealized
bloomed into romance
a relationship doomed
a pas-de-deux never danced
we both ran in fear
ne'er gave love a chance
we both detached, walked away
with not so much as a glance

for years have I sought
answers to questions I thought
perhaps should be uttered, yet all were for naught
my love just for you - the emotions I fought

you moved on, I moved back
my brittle ego attacked
despite all that I lack
disillusioned you'd stay
now I wither away
watching my heart fray

ode to you, my past love,
my kind, gentle white dove
my mind to my heart a stern gentle shove...

do you ever think of me
when I'm not there?
the soft scent and feel
of my shimmering hair?
do you smile and remember
or do you no longer care?

Abyss

Abyss

I'm failing in strength
and suddenly falling
what I hear is my voice
to God it is calling
haunting, enchanted
a melody sweet
the notes shatter in silence
as they fall at my feet
anxiety is my sea
inside which I'm drowning
I can't smile or breathe
while my lips are frowning
diamonds & crystals
from my eyes are my tears
beautiful but hard
I can't shatter my fears
holding my breath
I sink down oh so deep
I lie on the bottom
and continue to weep
liquid red rubies
try to pour from my veins
'tis Nemesis I become
I must grab hold of the reigns
I claw at the darkness
once again it's my tomb
I'm determined to reject
anger, heartache and gloom
my mind's eye is now quiet
it opens and sees
the shimmering light
feels the comforting breeze
though I'm weary & weak
I labor to stand
survival is bleak
but I hold out my hand
I grasp a rope dangling
its splinters I feel
the rope is a chain

reinforced now by steel
with confidence and love
determined i rise
weightless and free
to heaven my soul flies