Undecided

Undecided*
I hope the decision
I've made is quite right
I hate being without you
alone every night
I lie in the dark
and rationalize things
I stare at my phone
and pray that it rings
I need to let go
yet I want you to fight
and say what we have
is pure and all right
perhaps if we'd met
at some other time
things would be perfect
and work out just fine
at this point I know
it will only cause pain
as much as I want to
I can't see you again
good byes are so awful,
so final, so stern
but the fire you've ignited
forever will burn