Do you remember?

Do You Remember?

do you think about me
when I'm not there?
do you remember how it feels
to run your fingers through my hair?
do you miss my smile, my scent, my voice?
do you remember it all, or forget me by choice?

do memories flood your mind
of how things used to be?
do you dare to think ahead
is it our future that you see?
or do you dwell on regrets
and when you wished you were free?
do you think about everything?
...everything but me?

when you're silent and sullen
my instinct's to retreat
becoming scared and insecure
and sadly admit defeat
with your face, name and voice
etched on every heartbeat

did you once love me
if but for a moment?
it so would've helped
if you just would have shown it!
the residue you've left- the stabbing paranoia

- I now own it

a duet unrealized
bloomed into romance
a relationship doomed
a pas-de-deux never danced
we both ran in fear
ne'er gave love a chance
we both detached, walked away
with not so much as a glance

for years have I sought
answers to questions I thought
perhaps should be uttered, yet all were for naught
my love just for you - the emotions I fought

you moved on, I moved back
my brittle ego attacked
despite all that I lack
disillusioned you'd stay
now I wither away
watching my heart fray

ode to you, my past love,
my kind, gentle white dove
my mind to my heart a stern gentle shove...

do you ever think of me
when I'm not there?
the soft scent and feel
of my shimmering hair?
do you smile and remember
or do you no longer care?